Swim

You can't douse these flames.
I'm a strong girl and I shine bright on my own.

So come October I'll be very proud!

I love ...essays?

I drove around town (an obstacle course for L platers) after work and I came home just before it rained. I went into the gallery and found the window open and to my dismay I found a waterlogged copy of Cambridge 2 Unit Mathematics-my favourite textbook. How could you not love its glossy pages filled with mathematically challenging and diverse exercises?

I just want to eat it sometimes. Oh to digest its brilliance and feel within you such awesomeness.

Only kidding. But seriously I think it's a sign- that I shouldn't be doing math!

NYE & School

I might not drop 2 Unit Mathematics after all. But I'm so goddamn adamant! I love math. I really do. But if it's stopping me from achieving a 98.55 ATAR then I want nothing to do with it.

I'm asking myself if I really want to be a journalist. I'm taking the UMAT in July- and that's for freaking Medicine! I don't know.

It's the New Year in less than 24 hours. Let's see what it brings.

I'm just going to drive around aimlessly now.


If I get above 85% for the first Math exam of the HSC then I'll consider keeping it.

17

It's my birthday today and I'm currently experiencing a whole new level of boredom- on account of my mum and two sisters leaving for the Philippines today. They'll be back in 4 weeks, so I'm stuck here with my dad and older brother.I'm always getting left behind and it kind of sucks, but I guess I chose this. Silly me.

We ate lunch after wards and then I came home and collapsed on my bed. I do this at least once every day. It's New Years Eve tomorrow... and I can't fathom what we'll do.

I learned how to use the washing machine so I guess I'll be doing the laundry. Hooray for that.

My brother is inviting me to dinner with his friends and to see Avatar at iMax. I think I'll have to accept this offer on account of my being bored.

Bee days and fairies

Today is such a halycon day. I can't account for the speed to which today is passing. I woke up at 12pm- I'll explain this:

It was my party yesterday! Everyone I invited came except for my cousin. We ate and played Band Hero for aeons-this was punctuated by kodak moments,cake cutting and gift opening! Charisse got me the Arctic Monkeys Live at the Apollo! I was so happy when I opened it :) And I still am! She also got me an indie book mark & a Little Miss Birthday book! Cwizzy and Christina got me a Mooks tee, Alicia a hand made puppy sized elephant! Kevin gave me moolah, Gyndee got me a monkey and a toy flower :) and Marianne (my brother's girlfriend) got me Tommy Hilfiger's True Star Gold (It smells nice) and a Miffy stuff toy! :O. It was lots of fun! & when everyone was gone my big sisters friends took us to McDonalds (it was like 2am) and we ate aahahaha. I was full but I still managed to eat a cheeseburger and fries.

So I slept at 3am- thus explaining why I awoke so late during the day.

I watched a bit of the Arctic Monkeys DVD then I read the Death of the Author and collapsed on my bed.
My mum and sisters are leaving tomorrow- which happens to be my actual bee day.
It will be sad and I don't know :( 28days is a long time.

Sigh.

edit: Rosanna got me a $30 iTunes card and I have no eye deer what to buy with it!

You know what? I really cannot wait to grow up and travel. I hate that my parents don't care for it,and that we never go anywhere besides the Philippines. I really want to go the Wizarding World of Harry Potter next year. You think they'd say yes considering I've just finished the HSC and school. Why would I want to spend two months in the Philippines by myself? It doesn't make sense.

Nothing feels fair anymore. I don't care if I'm being crabby but it's so freaking boring. I don't know what will make me happy anymore

Highlight of my day

Watching my dad and big brother chase Sirius out in the front yard.