i hate my self because i trust people and they let me down.
i hate my self because i'm way too emotional, i'm sensitive- to the extent that the people that don't know me well, have a hard time understanding this.
I spiralled down today.
I don't know if i cried because of that single incident, or this single incident was a catalyst.
I contained all my emotions, they were too confined.
I was crying in the cool room.
But I feel better now. I really wanted my friends to be there- at that moment.
someone to just cry on.
Its amazing how you can lift yourself up.

I'm going to listen to the people that know me.
Based on precedent this is a good way to go.
But i'm feeling better. All i needed was a genuine apology. And the great thing was- when i came home, i could tell someone. Alicia wasn't there....but all of a suddenly i found it easy to talk to Cameron. He could relate. We find that at times we're forced to be at places where we just don't belong. He reassured me that my sensitivity makes me me.