There's always that tendency to be something but your true self , to obliterate every idiosyncracy and drown all oddities. There's something tempting about fitting in. Fitting in... is so overated. But we've all wanted to fit in at some point in our lives. We all need friends...we all need to feel that sense of belonging. No one wants to be a loner.
Fitting in is such a cliche subject matter, and it was not my initial intention to write about it. I really do not know how i began to write about fitting in...its just that i feel as if i've changed so much in such a short period of time.
I used to be best friends with someone else, and we fought about nothing in particular...but ever since then i've changed so much. I like myself more than i ever did back then. I talk more now, i'm not that shy and i can actually laugh out loud without having to look back and wonder what people think of me.
I was overly self conscious.
And i wonder why.
When the oblivious become the obvious. (that's right)
I want to say so much right now, but often my own political correctness gets in the way or my inherent morals.
I don't want to say it. So i'll kind of walk in circles with implications left right and centre.
I've never had a boyfriend in my whole life. ever.
Owing to the fact that
a. I'm too shy
b. Feel that i'm simply not ready. I'm mature for my age, but i don't know what to feel. How to act. I'm scared of being changed.
c. I haven't met a boy that has truly liked me for me.
d. I'm not allowed to have one
But have you realised...how some girls just can't stand being alone?
Their happiness is soley dependent on their marital status. They go out with any guy that has managed to make them laugh...or someone who shares a single commonality with them.
Girls should be... not necessarily more independent...but aware.
back to the oblivious thing..
It's kind of obvious when you're chasing a guy around.
Alicia and I saw it... and we couldn't believe how plainly obvious it was to everyone else but her.
I think.. we are in that phase, where we do what everyone else is doing.
We're just in that mindspace.
I can't really blame her.
And i'm not even blaming her.
I'm just curious about these things.
What makes us need someone else? What makes us want to feel?
Why do we seek it, at our own costs? Why are some people mindless whilst in this search?
Why don't we just stay the way we are?
Its like serendipity really.
This is such a weird/random post.
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Nobody wants to fit in, we just want to be valued. The first way of achieving value is through relation & similarity. On the other hand, uniqueness turns into recognition, which turns into value. As you say, "we all need to feel that sense of belonging".
ReplyDelete"But have you realised...how some girls just can't stand being alone?". Elevated dopamine levels in the brain when in a relationship, fall when out of a relationship. Many people find themselves subconsciously craving the dopamine. Cocaine, nicotine, and amphetamines induce the same effect, by increasing dopamine levels. Love chemistry eh.
I don't think you want the answers though, just to complain about the world's status is enough. Everybody wants to save the world, but the world doesn't want to be saved.