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I've just come back from school with new found motivation.
No time to waste!
English speech beckons.

Sundays are always spent at work,
today's realisations:
I'm great at lying (HA! Lied to Daniel & my manager- but seriously i needed to buy MAX & PK and i were a bit bored with the happenings, so joking around adds spice)
I'm sneaky, see above
I have many many ideas.
I don't say goodbye to customers like a trainee: Thankyouhaveagreatedayseeyoulater hahaha i'm kind of out of breath,
Fillet! NOT Filley DOUCHEBAGS- My big sister picked me up from work and we wanted to eat McDonalds so we were at the drive thru & i said i wanted a fillet-o-fish meal & she was like do i say filley or fillet? LOL it's FILLET right? I'm so confused.

& this..

He is full of contradictions, & i don't know why every Sunday i feel so confused.
Stop smiling at me, making jokes & thinking you don't know. Today was pretty screwed up, he manages to make me feel hopeful and unhopeful- oh i can't explain what i'm going through.
I want to wait, is that stupid?
I know he's not an idea.


Watching Gilmore Girl reruns,
my bestfriend is supplying me with black nail polish & i shall apply some AND mourn for our generation-bahahaha kidding i'm no Sam Madison.
I'm just gonna wear black

Tis the time to begin assesments!
To be exact there are four: Biology, Adv. English, Modern History, Extension English.

New music:
Cam gave me an Alkaline Trio album,
and it was a pretty neat...i think it's called something something irony.
My memory is failing :(


Just printed a whole stack of literary criticisms:
three colours blue, song of myself & the god of small things.

Definitely time to begin english assesments.

My life is currently boring. I finished An Abundance of Katherine's last night & i want to get Max tomorrow....
But tomorrow is when like half the extension class will be @ Amanda's because we all decided to do three colours blue. So pizza and watching an extension english movie.
Funny.
I want to go on an escapade!

I want to go see Anberlin & The Academy Is...
Anberlin were at soundwave but i failed to see them,
Goddamn i swear,
What do i do?
I don't think i'll end up going,
I have a friend in mind....but i'm not sure.
This sucks.
Especially because i've just gone to a concert...and i doubt that my mum will let even if i have my own money & everything.
Concert is in August...and Soundwave tickets sell in October?
Damn Damn Damn.

I Think I Have An Attiude Problem

I think i fall in love with ideas rather than people.
I think i want to matter
I think there is always someplace better to be,
I think i don't carry an umbrella because i like it when the rain falls on me.

When all you want is to be somewhere else.

I don't know if I'm happy or not.
Nothing is ever good enough.

I'm sick of trying.

Things We (Charisse, Gyndee & I) Did:

1. Went to the city.
Primary aim: Get to the State Library
Going to the city consisted of us:
a. Walking around aimlessly, trying to locate the nearest Mcdonalds. (Found it at Wynard)
b. Spontaneous ideas! I suggested we go Kinokunya Bookstore, which ....
c. Resulted in us getting lost looking for Kinokunya, thankfully
d. We found it!
e. We browsed through the YA section. Goddamn they have everything. And I think:
i. I want to live there.
ii. Buy everything
f. I ended up buying An Abundance of Katherine's but:
g. immediately wished i had a million dollars with me, because they had Harry Potter Pretty Edition (wrapped in a ribbon and everything) for $500. (Pretty edition isn't what it's called though!)
h. Kinokunya was in The Galleries Victoria, so we looked around a bit- and
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found indie bracelets! (Yay!) I've always wanted one, so we all got one & i am currently in love with it. It took us about 30 minutes to decide.



Okay i'm tired of that numbering layout.
So basically when we left we didn't feel like going to the state library anymore.
But we did!
We walked through Hyde Park (Our pace immediately slowed- because the atmosphere demanded we walk slow!)
We eventually got to the state library, we had to fill out slips to get the books we wanted- i had seven books! ahaha sucked in.
I scanned through them, and decided to go back next time to photocopy them.
We ended up photocopying critical references on the God of Small Things, for extension english!
Yay for semi-completion.!

Upon catching the train home i read MX.

The end.

Exams are over!

I had my last exam today, which happened to be Modern History!
I'm hoping that i did not screw up even though i felt crappy afterward, but whatever.
I still need to make a post about All Time Low, but owing to the fact that i have virus on both my computers...and i can't risk sticking in my USB- which happens to contain those sacred videos and photos...it won't be any time soon. Photo blog! goddamn it!
I think i might also upload a video, but first i have to get techy and learn how to do that. Help is much appreciated.
Any who, i think i laughed a little too much inside today.
1. I saw a couple jogging...well actually it looked like they were running for their lives. Like painful jogging.
2. I had a mango smoothie while i waited for the bus to come, and i was really stupid, because it was freaking freezing. It was like 10 degrees Celsius.

I must:
1. Get a pair of gloves.
2. Pick up my last book order @ Dymocks tomorrow.
3. Go to the library by my lonesome.
4. Organise a trip to the state library, which will incidentally knock of must 5. Hopefully Thursday!
5. Start my english, extension english and modern history assignments.
6. Get my priorities in order.

All Time Low JUNE 05

Photo's to come.
Sucks that i didn't get to meet them, but i finally got to see them live (L)

This is a bit late,
but thought ya'll deserved to know: they cut the godamn trees!
The trees that would never let you forget what season it is.
I told my older sister during the car ride home from my religion exam and it had never occurred to her. She kept looking back at the tree-less centre of the road.
"Does it make you sad?" I asked. She nodded.
I know those trees were planted by humans and so they really weren't completely nature bound, but godamnit!- maybe if you just leave tree seeds alone for two goddamn seconds and let them grow wherever they please!
I don't know why i'm upset over this.
But it kills when routine is lost.
Taken away without consent, without any expression of thought, without freaking consideration.
I'm half hoping new trees will be planted, because as an optimist that was my first assumption: hey they are going to plant prettier trees.
But honestly, who exactly are they? (I mean maybe i could turn all badass and become a guirella gardner)
Then i realised how the tree branches would fall on the road after a storm, and maybe that's the reason. Practicality over aesthetics.
I wonder if anyone else has noticed, maybe they have, because those trees formed the entrance to town. Just like gateways, people always pay attention to them and their sizes and they are always almost nearly described as wrought iron or imposing.

But mine would read like this.

Gates. Boundaries. Edges. A journey in itself is limitless, but like breaking into the second shell of an atom or god forbid the one most closely bound to the nucleus we must first break through the boundaries that have kept us from journeying, from taking the simple steps towards liberation. Some of us have keys to our gates, others sheer animal- all it takes is a shove, a jump, and then some of us don't have gates to jump at all, because some of us have gates that were never barriers, but were one's that open at will, or were gates that could be stepped over

Title-less posts are signs of confined creativity.

I don't think there is a soundtrack to my day. I just like songs that make you bounce when you walk.
Or sometimes when you're listening to music and you stare out the window and you feel like this song holistically encompasses the luminesence of the streetlights, the lone walker with a dog tugging at its leash, the air full of bitterness and the clouds hiding the truth but only so shabbily.
There's a transluence that only comes with wisps.


I would like to whisper something.
And maybe i would like people to listen.