Clouds.

its summer right now.
and its cold.
there are rain clouds : (
and i want to mail my letter
but its too cold to walk.



the new year.
resolutions?
Golly i don't really know.
Perhaps eating more healthy food.
Do not live in a world of books? - maybe live adequately in fictitious stories?
Stop spending a gazillion dollars on your goal- library
Being more confident and less shy,



I've realised that i'm afraid of not knowing where i'm going. Like not having a planned route or a map.
I caught the bus to work yesterday, and i was the only one on it- for the entire trip, which freaked me out. My bus fair of $1.50 was inadequate i'm sure, because its like $1.00 for ever litre of petrol and i paid for a litre and a half- but my one dollar fifty couldn't have covered everything, right? And my being on that bus was wasteful.
Who am i to worry!
So anyways this bus went everywhereeeeeeeeee
and i was wondering whether the busdriver actually listened to me when i told him where i wanted to get off.
So it went through 2 neighborhoods.
and he stopped several times to read the paper.
and i was worried- i didn't know where i was going, yet i was too afraid to ask.

My plan is to never catch a bus to work.
oh and i got there- EVENTUALLY


When i went to work i got asked to stay back till close- so i was practically there for the whole day. 11am-8.30pm
but i got a one hour break.
i made a friend who works at big w- i forgot her name- but she was working 8am-8pm
but NEWS FLASH they get a one hour break and 2 fifteens.
so guess what i bought for my break.
BREAD.
YES BREAD.
i told my self it was a healthy choice.
but really it was on account of the guy.
who i had seen before.
he goes to a smart school which i failed to get into : (
and i saw him almost every afternoon when our bus went through the train station.
and then i saw him at the BAKERY.
he had indie hair. like you know. zac efron style but less modelled and shight.
and yeah.
the bread sucked.



so i bought GUMMI bears.
they are so cute, i never feel like eating them